17th April

yes, it's 17th April already..
I wonder what will it be like 1 year from now..

I'm half looking forward to graduating, the other half, not really wanting to go into the adult society, I'm not ready yet..(and well ofc, the dreaded? NS)

Theres so much(yes, uncountable) things that I want to buy now.. But for now(like currently, I know my mind will change fast enough), it'll be Ray Ban's RB3364-002(google it yourself, and maybe tell me if it suits me?), and a Bicycle, bike ofc so that I can travel around easily with it, I don't even know how much it costs, but it's not like I'll have the money for it anytime soon.. well unless ofc, if my dad strike top TOTO money or maybe his business manage to find a gold mine, else.. well, need wait long long..

Ask me why I'm not working? well, it's obviously I'm too damn lazy, obvious much?
Probably mostly cause I really can't commit into anything, even nowsaday, in gaming, I can't commit myself into doing something.
Maybe you just take me blogging for example, I said like 3-4 months ago that I'll try to update frequently, but whats happening now? I can't commit already.

Urgh.. I'm just typing as I think, so this post will be like, up down left right everywhere but really nowhere.

Spending the late night thinking about some stuffs in life, some stuffs that I should had and shouldn't had done. No use thinking back, but it's always good to reflect a little so that I will not do the same mistakes again?
I say that, but knowing myself so clearly, I know I will..

Honestly, I still don't have a clear future in front of me, the only reason why I want to be studying, studying and studying now is because I can't see a clear future for myself now, maybe you'll called it scared, I guess so too.
The future, is honestly, one of the scariest thing in life I guess.. You'll never know whats gonna happen, one moment you can be reading what I'm posting, the other moment you might just receive a phone call that'll change your whole life, I don't know.

So I talk about the unknown future, which a lot of people use this as an excuse to 'escape' from life, doing stuffs that they'll most likely regret in the future, but why?
This applies to a lot of people, including me, sometimes we just don't know that why we did certain things even though we know that we'll regret it in the near future. Thats Life for us I guess.



I guess I'll just let all of you enjoy this..

It reminds me deeply of the times where I used to play Ragnarok Online, the game play last time was really fun(I was primary - secondary 1-2 when I played).
The times where all of us were just kids, and we were enjoying this like how kids of our times should be, unlike now, where everything is so different.

Probably too much things going on my mind now, I could go on typing a freak long long blog post, but I guess you are already tired reading till here..

Till then..